That means it's Five Minute Friday over at Gypsy Mama!
The rules? Write for 5 minutes without stopping to edit or revise.
The topic? Wonder!
Ready?
Set?
GO!
Ok, so when I first saw the topic, this started running through my head.
But then I got seriuos and really got to wondering.
I was thinking about this earlier this week, actually.
I was wondering what would have happened in and with my life if I had made different choices.
For example, what would have happened had I just kept it Elizabeth and me after my first failed marriage? I mean, she's 13 now, and I would have my 'freedom' if you will. We could travel, which I love to do, and we would have more $ because I wouldn't have to be paying for preschool and childcare for the others. It would be great!
BUT....
Then I got to thinking about how much I would miss being here, right where I am.
And I realized that no matter how fun, easy, or free that life might be had I made that choice, I am much happier right here, where I am.
Of course, you could say that you can't miss something that you never had; that I couldn't miss the little dudes if they were never there, but I'm not so sure that's true. I mean, I wouldn't be able to miss them, exactly,
but....
what about the laughs and the fun and the family and the working together and the give and take it takes to make a large blended family work?
And what about all the wonder
the wonder that is on the little dudes faces as they watch their big sister do big sister things.
the adoration one their little faces when she comes home from school to scoop them up and love on them.
That would all not be here...
so, I don't really wonder what it would be like.
I'm just glad it's the way it is!
DING!
Ok....that felt random...let's see what happened here...I wonder....
Come join us!
Love this. It's an interesting exercise to wonder what life would be like if you'd taken a different path, made different decisions. It sounds like you made the exact right choice. Thank you so much for sharing. Smiles -
ReplyDeleteGreat job! I was just thinking similar thoughts this week. We have 3 now, and I was thinking what it would have been like with two instead. Then I really really realized what I would have missed out on with the amazing third child. Aren't you glad we don't have to wonder what it would be like if we would have just tried to have one more :) See ya next Friday!
ReplyDeleteI think I am going to do the five minute thing this week. You have inspired me. I wrote mine before I read yours....didn't want to be influenced!
ReplyDeleteSo many thoughts like these run through my mind... I sometimes think it would be cool to have lived parallel lives, to choose different paths and see where all the different roads would have lead. You captured these sentiments for me in this post today. :)
ReplyDeleteand here I thought I was the only person that played the "what if game"
ReplyDeleteall in all we know "all things work together for the good to those who love God and are called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28
It all comes back to that. and your daughter will NEVER regret having siblings...best gift you can give to a child
"What if's" are weighty, aren't they? When I find my mind wandering to them, usually when my life seems overly stressful or super busy, I remind myself that God wants me to live the life I live now to the fullest for Him, and that's enough. It's hard not to think sometimes, though!!!
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